I am not happy with myself. I don’t think I ever will be 100% satisfied with myself any time soon. There are so many elements I can’t stand. Granted, I am fully aware of how disgusting it is to have that much self ‘dislike’. Granted, it’s absolutely unhealthy to spend what seems like hours dissecting flaws and flaws and more flaws in the mirror. Granted, no one should ever perceive themselves as or feel like garbage. But regardless, it’s still just… there. Of course there will be people who think I have nothing better to do with my life than fish for compliments all day long. But I don’t think anyone realizes that this is actually a struggle that looms over my head quite often now. Self esteem has been hitting rock bottom, rising up, and collapsing again.  Not sure where this instability of self came from, but it sucks. 

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